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Current Location: Imprisoned room of plotting
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: the buzz from my AC

Ok I have a project to begin. Not only its for the next "Halloween Bacchanal" but its also because I have made a new choice into wanting to be fit. Not that i'm not fit but I'm taking things to a new level.

What's Project: Spartan?
I've told this to a few people already but I'll let everyone know now.
This project consists of me dressing up as a Spartan off of the movie "300". Now...I know damned well i'm not gonna pull it off in the shape i'm in now..so..from the average weight of 135 lbs. I breathe daily, I will build myself up to the goal of 180 lbs. of toned slab of warrior. Yes, LegZ has finally lost it..lol. But I feel as If I need to upgraged my physical self...like ..oh say..a 1980's Camaro having a full body kit upgrade and chasis renewal along with a new engine. "Refurbished" for short.
I know people love me the way I am now...but this is something i've been wanting to do since I was a child. I honestly feel that this is the only challenge that I have never faced...and I know that in the end it would be worth the efforts.

I however will commit to do 0630 hr sessions like I was in the military. 1 hr work out,5 days a week (of course i won't do it weekends). I know for sure if I set my mind to the military days, then I know I will keep this commitment running strong. Somedays consists of single body sections for work out, others the machines, and others full body work outs.. Similar to the military which kept me in full shape for 4 yrs and alive over in Iraq. Only difference...I never used suppliments to build up mass for my body. This time I will. From here to Bacchanal, consider me turning from a catepillar to a buttefly only...meaner..lol.

BUT one thing stays the same...the goofball..lol LEGZ WILL REMAIN A UNIVERSAL DORKITRON!!!!
HIYO!!

Laters all..
LouE

Current Location: My Happy Asylum
Current Mood: determined

I haven't griped in a while and maybe because alot of the times I blow off steam a few minutes after i'm ticked off. But now...I seriously wonder if people love to push my buttons just cause they think its a sick joke or just want to make someone else miserable. What is it that I have to do to be a good person or friend? What is it I have to do to be a good father?... I tend to try and not bother people because they may be busy or what not. I let people know that I would either call them at a certain hour if I can, but when I am asked to call someone or go somewhere I am well damned sure that I actually call or am there. If I can't call or make it I leave messages after I tried to get in contact with he/she or I just can't make it because of traveling purposes. If i'm in the middle of a stupid drama that's really unnecessary, I get away from it really quickly because I have lots of crap that I have to deal with of my own, I don't need anyone elses shit on my lap.

Is it a damn crime to be themselves? Because lately i'm being persecuted to voice my damned opinions, if you don't like the answer then don't ask me the fucking questions. I have ALOT on my chest that I wanna let out because I think its been far too long that I just need to let shit out that I have held back to certain individuals that are so goddamned deserving of me really just blowing up on them. But I won't do it here and mainly because people may take it offensively and would return with something that would really jerk my chain into cracking their face open. You know who you fucking are and I hope dearly that karma comes back to bite you people in the ass and immensely hard too.

I'm tired of it...i'm tired of the bullshit, I'm tired of having to put out alot for others and not get anythig in return but bullshit on my doorstep..SOMEHOW...I have NO fucking clue even while i'm in my own room locked up like a prisoner..someone manages to strike that nerve that makes me turn into an "Almighty Asshole". Why do it?..really why do it to someone that leaves everyone in their fucking peace to do what-the-fuck-ever it is that they normally do in thier lives? Simple answer..everyone wants to see me get insanely pissed. I swear to my own LIFE leave me out of your misery, leave me out of your petty drama, because i'll wipe myself out of everyones contact list and really not be there for them when they need me the most as a friend. Don't damage me more than I already am, I don't want anymore of it.

I can joke around, I can laugh, I can be that friendly ear, I can be that shoulder to cry on..but what I don't want to be is your enemy because so far its the road that i'm being put throught right now and that's not cool. I just wish people can get their heads out their asses and stop being two-faced towards others. That childish game has got to fucking stop. I know I wasn't always a good person, hell i'm a fucking giant pain in the ass, but shit, I don't deserve to be treated like the lowest lifeform on Earth. I'm starting to run out of options in how to deal with it logically. Ignoring isn't gonna help because I CAN'T ignore a certain someone that I need to keep in contact with because of the fact that I am a father which I will never abandon my son because he's everything to me.

As for the "He said / She said" people, I can drop you like a bad habit. I have no problems there, but I know for sure they will do everything in their power to still try to make my life a living hell even if I do drop 'em. I swear I sometimes feel I was born in the wrong era..coz I still strongly believe that knocking someone in the noggin to make them learn not to fuck with me has disappeared from society today without getting sued or jailed, gone are the days of One on one fist fights without the bitch cowardly pulling a gun to your face and shooting you. If I had my way, half you bastards would be fearing me right now.

My buttons have been pushed too many times for me to hit that "overload" meter and the question is, why? I mean damn if you don't like me, stay away from me, don't befriend me and then try to screw my life over. That's what i'm not all about. People that know me here in 'lando love me because i'm a charismatic goofball and they appreciate me, which I think of 'em as family. I once thought of all of you people in Elysium as family, but shit now I don't know anymore. I speak highly of you guys alot and now I just feel like ever since I left I was booted out of that crew...I don't understand that shit. Well whatever..I don't care anymore...think how shitty you want of me..continue to spread the rumors..but do me a favor once ya find out that the person spreading them was a liar, don't walk your way towards me and kiss my ass because I will not be so friendly to your sorry asses. I belong here in 'lando, with family and friends that appreciate and respect me for who I am and what i'm all about.

I kinda feel better now that I have let out "some steam" but I will try and go and let most of it out tonight at Necro. For those that are going out there tonight i'll see ya there, love ya 'lando freaks.

Current Location: My Imprisoned Throne Room
Current Mood: infuriated
Current Music: And One - Tell Me Lies

Well after a few hours later, my sweetie gave me the luvins again and she didn't mean for the dispute that occured in the morning, even though I was kinda half asleep I can hear her and she then gave me the adorable hug that I wuvs so muchness =P(yes I know i'm being mushy now so deal with it..lol). Then after a good long sleep waking up not to long ago, I feel much rested and alot better and I feel normal again. Gave a couple of dollars to my folks so that we could eat some pizza for din din so mom wouldn't cook.

Ahhhhhhhh, I feel much better now, and same ole goofball has surfaced, its gonna be a wonderful night for me ty. I'm off now to be a gaming nerd, laters ppl, love and miss you lots.

PS: Can you figure this out?

"Eye M Sofa King Wetoded"

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Current Location: Infront of my Kra-z Puter
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Nuffin yet.

I'm really beginning to think that some invisible force wants to keep me unhappy and today is its strongest day of winning so far. So far it made my sweetie and I have a very mysterious dispute this morning, which i still don't know wtf to think about it at all. Whether its a warning sign to look out for in the near future or what. I'm still not sure what's wrong at all. The my stomach decides to be sour and just screw me up even more. What's even better is that I can't fall back to sleep after everything occured, which i'm wondering if I did or did not do anything wrong, like I said, i'm friggin clueless, but one thing is for sure, I'm not happy on how this morning is shaping up. I'm hoping the rest of the day won't suck because if it does, i'm not sure wth is it I have to do to keep happy, even in my own happy place.

Thank you invisibile force, yer making my morning suck so far, happy fucking bad luck day.

Current Location: My Happy Place?..
Current Mood: rejected
Current Music: ......my tv

I made a new Gallery that has to do with the woman on my Icon Picture. Its the City of... Gallery, go check it out, even if you aren't a gamer nerd like me, i think its pretty nifty.

Current Location: Happy Happy Place
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: My New Mix, Lou-E's Mix 12 Playlist

If ya don't have my number and or ya feel ya wanna hang out with me at my place, here's my phone and addy:

(917)549-5237

1918 Scranton Ave.
Orlando,FL 32826

There ya go..now ya still can see me. I will however miss ya all if I don't see ya. Love and miss you guys. *lots of hugs and kisses to you all*

Current Location: Same Happy Place
Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Crunching of yuppies fingers under my boot

I've come to the realization last night that the ONLY othe happy place other than my room isn't quite so much of a getaway anymore. After Last Week's stupid incidents and Last Night's High blood pressuring events, I finally am Calling it quits to go ANYWHERE that has to do with the general public. Two WILL occur If so much of me getting overly pissed off; 1) I WILL most definitely land in jail for killing someone (and believe me killing 7 ppl without hesitation in iraq won't stop me one bit from doing it here too), and 2)I will get killed either physically or may end up having somewhat of a stroke. I am sick and tired of biting my tongue for such morons that tend to wanna make my life a living hell in a place that I considered my second home. I NEVEr had that problem with Elysium. I never had jackasses come and mess shit up for me. Granted, there was drama there too, but nothing like this. It gets to me that I have so many friend at Ibar that now because of the increase of jackasses that come through that door now, its not the same anymore.

That's one thing, the second thing, DO I LOOK LIKE A DRUGGIE TO YOU?!! Coz i'm not, before I even get to the doors at Ibar I always get the yuppies asking me for fucking drugs, which i NEVER have touched in my life, so how the fuck do they think that I do that shit, and then there's the NEVER ENDING MOB OF FUCKING BUMS. I swear to GOD go get a fucking job and stop asking others for money. I understand there are some that can't hold on their own but sahit those are the ones tht are doing everything possible to go get a damned living, not some stupid ass that just wants to be a pain for everyone that works hard for their share.

After those events i'm to the point where sometimes I don't even wanna live in FL anymore, which i'm not in later years, but that's not the case at hand right at the moment. I never went through this shit in either Texas or Las Vegas or EVEN in New York. I won't be going to any concert events, Nor Clubs. If I wanna have a good time then i'll be at small gatherings or house parties, and that's only because I KNOW people there and they know me and what i'm all about. My way of fun will still be around, just not in public places where ppl that I fucking can't stand on a daily basis start to take over. Sorry guys, but no more clubbing or concerts for me, i'm done with that shit. My temper isn't gonna stay low if I so much even come in contact with assholes. Seriously, My temper + My PTSD = jail time or death, and I want none of it. So if ya wanna see me again, just invite me to small gatherings and house parties. Laters all.

Current Location: Happy Place
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: the sound of me cracking a yuppies vertabrae

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Current Location: ROOM AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN lol
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Nuffin' playin'

other than yesterday's scare..i sat here updating my LJ profile abit, and added a gallery too with lotsa pics...so go see it if ya like..well imma go to bed now..laters all.

Current Location: ROOM again..lol
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: again..buzzin of puter